Why I Was So Wrong on September 11th

On September 11, 2001, a fellow New Yorker and friend of mine,
a public health historian who knew instantly what the dangers were,
bicycled directly into the smoke, ash, and chemicals that hung over
lower Manhattan searching for his daughter whose school was only blocks
away from the collapsed buildings. She was, it turned out, "safe" in
that same pall of dangerous smoke. She had been evacuated to the street
with her class in time to see people leaping or falling to their deaths
from the upper floors of one of the crippled towers. You probably
couldn't live in New York City that day and not be connected, however
indirectly, to someone who died. In my case, it was the father of a
classmate of my son's, a photographer, who also advanced into the chaos
near one of the towers, leaving behind an eerie, moving trail of
photographs.

As for myself, I was on my bedroom floor that morning most
undramatically exercising when my wife called to tell me that something
was happening. By then, TV cameras were already focused on the first
punctured tower and, remembering tales of the B-25
that had hit the Empire State Building in 1945, I assumed I was
watching a horrifying accident. Another friend, a rare North American
who remembered the first 9/11 -- that day in 1973 when Salvador
Allende, the Chilean president, was overthrown and murdered in a
U.S.-backed military coup -- thought it might be Chilean payback.

Any half-plausible idea was, for a while, possible. History hadn't set.
The Bush administration, in disarray, hadn't yet hijacked the day or
the country. September 11th, still being lived, hadn't been renamed
"Patriot Day." There was, as yet, no Department of Homeland Security,
no Patriot Act. No one had been rounded up. No wars had been launched.

As for New Yorkers, those of us not making our way out of -- or into --
the danger zone were on the phone checking on loved ones, listening to
rumors, or outside in the streets, talking to each other, wondering
while the sirens wailed. It was a memorably terrible moment, but not,
in fact, a nightmare of fear; nor would New York ever, as far as I
could tell, find itself in the grip of blind revenge as, it seemed, so
much of the country would soon be. Not so long after 9/11, for
instance, two New Yorkers I know -- one had been close indeed to the
collapsing towers -- headed for Afghanistan, not armed to kill but to
help.

I remember my own now-embarrassing first reaction to 9/11 (once I
grasped what was actually happening). It was unexpectedly dense and
unprophetic, given the American reaction to come. I thought, then, that
perhaps the horror of those acts of destruction and mass murder in my
own city would open Americans to the sort of pain so many others in the
world had felt -- sometimes, in fact, at our own hands. It might, I
thought, change our politics. It did, of course, do that, but in no way
I imagined. And that was the strange, unexplained thing for me: it
seemed as if living at "ground zero" during the assaults of 9/11
somehow made you the worst predictor of what our nation would feel and
do.

For me, even today, an especially unnerving aspect of 9/11 was the way
so many Americans donned "I [heart] New York" T-shirts and hats -- New
York having, until then, been Sodom to Los Angeles's Gomorrah for much
of the country -- and under the Bush administration's fear-filled
ministrations, began beating the drums of war, while panicking over
prospective terrorists launching improbable attacks on their local
amusement parks and landmarks. It seemed craven to me then and still
does today.

Eight disastrous years later, I suddenly understand that day so much better, thanks to Rebecca Solnit, whom 9/11 indirectly sent my way offering hope in dark times. Now, she's returned with her latest book, A Paradise Built in Hell, which capsizes our most basic sense of what disaster is all about, humanly speaking. As befits an author who has written a guidebook to getting lost,
she is bold beyond belief and her originality matches that boldness.
And here's the thing: if you take a journey into disaster with her
(9/11 being but one of the many disasters she explores in the book),
you won't get lost. You'll find yourself. You'll find ourselves, our
better selves, even in catastrophe.

Think of Paradise as the perfect companion volume to Naomi Klein's The Shock Doctrine.
Klein explained how governments try to take advantage of disasters to
optimize their power and wealth (and that of their cronies); Solnit
explains what ordinary people in disasters regularly do for themselves.
They don't, as we have been taught, run screaming from danger. They
head for the smoke, pedaling hard, and then, without the help of
governments, they begin to organize. They become, briefly, their better
selves. So here's a thought: Maybe it was the lack of the actual
experience of 9/11 that left the rest of America so vulnerable when the
Bush administration led them toward their lesser selves.

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